Suffering With Silence…

 

 

Suffering with silence

of

Secret sweaty violence

shoves

Anger

Swallowed whole

Which

Stains the young soul

Dingy dark rooms all forgotten

In the mind storing guilt

misbegotten

But Brightness shines on

Darkness done

Illuminating always

The Battle fought and won

A few staggering steps

In from the night

Dirty souls gain beauty

When shown in the light

 

 

 

Damage done to children can live on and grow in silence and the cycle continues, only by going against our intuition and admitting that we are victims and admitting our weakness can we find healing and hope to lean on God’s strength.   A conversation with a long lost friend yesterday reminded me to always look at myself through God’s eyes and shine light into the darkness. I can’t say I have righteousness, but what whatever is in my heart needs His light.

When I’m feeling like I can’t trust the world or even myself I pray Psalm 37:3-6 and I ask for the His light to shine into those dark rooms.

 

Psalm 37: 3-6  “Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.  Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart.  Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this; He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.”

Once again I have to point out how scary it can be to post these little windows into my pain. Fear of judgement and ridicule is so strong. Every time I pray about it though the same though sounds in my head, do it for them. If you are hurting remember you are not alone, we all have dark corners of dark rooms in our heads and hearts. Every single person does, we are all broken and in need of healing so don’t be afraid to step out of the night and seek help.

p.s. I promise I’ll get back to the funny stuff with my next post 🙂